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This has been an interesting year to say the least. Upheaval on a global scale, the jobless situation in our country bubbling over. This has also been a year of growth, of reflection.

Chris Anderson and i started making music together under the moniker - CRAVE. we have recorded three records now, this being our latest i thought it apt to call it Beulah, after the neighborhood i live in call by us locals- Beulah Park. Also, the idea of "Beulah" being some ancient memory, kind of leading my hand giving me lyrics, and the courage to strap on a guitar in my early middle age and play songs.

My good friend calls the music Black Punk. I do not disagree, in fact i like the idea of it, because Punk symbolizes the idea of doing whatever you wish, sound however you may. the concept of D.I.Y. has been commodified over time, but it is apt here.

as with any Cleveland Tapes Release, we allow you to decide what you want to pay for the digital versions of our music. we hope that in doing this, we offer goodwill and get it back in return.



released November 4, 2011

Recorded/mixed by Paul at THE BLACK EYE/71ST Door.

Chris Anderson plays Drums on tracks 2, 4, 6, 10, 11.
Prepares guitar loops for tracks 4, 11.

Ed Sotelo plays Bass on tracks 4, 6, 10, 11.
Thanks Ed, we really love your work on this one.

RAW - Guitar/Vocals on Beulah.
Drums on tracks 3, 5, 7, 8 , 9, 12

Julia Smith does vocals on Coves.
George Chupek solos on guitar for This Before Choking
Lyz Bly does the vocal on An Introduction


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Track Name: Crave - This Before Choking
i'm pacing the dark room
and all i have now
is the look upon your face
a wink to whisper, No.
and we never knew
we should feel
ah, we should feel

for the blaming
the fights
the silence
the shards of us
and all i have now
is the look upon your face
when you tell me its you.

and i want to matter
can you undo what you've done
so if this is what you want
come close, come closer.

the cuts we remember
the one's no one ever knows
a flame of touching
holds the price of souls
and i may never know
cuz all i have now
is the look upon your face

and i want to matter
so if this is what you want
keep close, ah keep close.
Track Name: Crave - It Splits Seconds Sand
follow along curve
a shunning, a false woe
tearing like she knows
could it be
that you wish you could speak
or will it be that you won't

for i been, and i ain't
so the telling will not survive
oh, it seems right
for you don't have to want me too
as if night remembers

yes, you know your men
and what they never were
they told you its yours
as if they could not fathom
you were right.
and it won't be that way
for us is forever songs
and rapture is so far gone
for my night

for i been, and i ain't
so the telling will not survive
oh, oh you love
but you don't have to
for i will remember
that first night
Track Name: Crave - St. Ann
Look at the other side of it all
what does she mean
when she says I'm all she needs
for I've been less than whole
and she carries a bag full of holes
we wonder,
how do you protect
a gesture of sincere
for all you have is a tape
a few loose sheets

save me, save me

for maybe its easy
this time
she was a twelve
blew a kiss
from the other side

and maybe she wished for you
before you were born
for you see her
you remember what its like to breathe
and you don't realize
that i conjure all my troubles
to way lay them aside
for the prayers left
inside your eyes
Track Name: Crave - Coves
This is what waiting feels like
a push against strong wind
i've been seeing myself
in fall leaves
and one of us
might not make it
much longer
and some of us
may never know
just when the light goes
for the awful quiet

let me take your hand
and say with all my might
i could die tonight.

and i've been placing all this blame
on empty nights
toasting cups of lies
wondering if this is my life
but too shook to ask why

morning now and i made it
so the sky holds blood
against its bottom rim
and the ground forgives
the calling of its name in vain
i grab your hand to say again

i could die tonight
holding on to you
holding on my love
Track Name: Crave - at a time now
Maybe you scared
and have been for a time now
they tell you it be alright
the years peel away
and truth frays
a million dead boys
500 responsible
this is the modern my friends

have let them
take the tiny cuts
hush the voice in us
placate the soul's debate
for fear is their weapon.

how does matter
that we are failing
oh, complicit in your own suicide
for the voices marching on

this is the modern my friends.
Track Name: Crave - Some, A Kin To
Can i go
to the north shore
and will myself to be
more than just me
past his name
of that face he gave
and will myself to be
more than a mirror
of how he failed you.

can i make my way
my own love
my own hate
let me tell you of my scars
from a time that he held you
so fleeting
and you want the magic
of a do over
a do over
don't deny it
don't deny

for regret is akin to suicide
but time is a curse served cold
in a womb without your name.
Track Name: Crave - Amen Corner
This, how you been?
get old, too practiced
no care, considering
all the gift of an ear
of a shoulder
of my time, but never yours.
we must be the one who pretend
fail to hear
to march in place
as if its new
not broken

consider me
no longer a boy
far from defined
stronger than most
consider us
a love
a war
that fear of failing

that amen corner
where prayers are kept
by candlelight
and wonderment
as if you were a child
and you never knew
your father's hand
and all that was meant
by the word - man.

so when your mother held you
so tender, so new
it was loved by you
the you that you plan for
that you tuck close

and its not my concern
you take care
of yours.
Track Name: Crave - 1000 Rocks
I found you
buffing stone

not what you
want me to be

but it really is.

cuz its magic
that we claim
its hard to set aflame
and place it by name

not gonna be
what you want me to be.

but its alright
oooh, its alright.
it really is.

there's a 1000 rocks
in my mouth
and you yapping
i see your eyes destroy the sun
and the moon is a jewel
never worn.